Many times in my life I have questioned God about "Why?" Not anything else, just "Why?" I know, it is not my place to question God and his infinite wisdom. I know, God knows his plans for us. I know, that God knows why he did not let us have children. I know, that God answers our prayers, His way. I know, that eventually I will learn patience and He will give me my answer. I know, I know, I know.
I have read the passages in the Bible for patience and questioning and hurt.
I have prayed for my husband to become the head of our home as it is laid out in the Bible. I have looked back over the last four to five years and have watched as my husband has grown in understanding of God's love. I have to say that God is answering that prayer and is still working on him.
We have been married now going on seventeen years. Over the last four to five years, it seems that our individual ideas have begun to coalesce into a common idea of home, building a farm, and preparing for the future. We have also begun to look for a home church to nurture us in our Christian walk. We have visited one while we have been home and it looks promising. We hope it will be a good fit. The only problem is it being so far from our home, about 20 miles. But if everything else works, the drive will not matter.
When we bought our ten acres of land on which to build our home and farm, we dedicated the land to God's glory. We told God that whatever happened on that land was for Him. Good or bad. We will still praise him. My husband and I, after we signed the papers to purchase the land, stood at the top of the hill at the entrance to our driveway and said a prayer of thanksgiving and asked God's blessings.
I cannot say that our adventure has been easy. We are approaching deadlines on building permits. God has provided for us in our needs and I have confidence that he will continue to provide for us.
" My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall in divers temptaions; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing." -James 1:2-4 KJV
Thank You, LORD for everything you have done for us and for all you will do. Only through you will all be accomplished. Amen
